Passion in a Jar

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there are stars that revolve
around an unstudied black center,
swinging at 100 miles per second.

there are molecules on my skin
that dance chaotically in heat
when i am involved in something
bringing me closer to my center

grand or small, the extremes
of all scales tend to end up
looking roughly the same.

 

-ginger

from sun’s core

Vulnerability is like drowning, but finding out you can breathe, albeit in a different way.  And although some people find this out, it still can be a discomfort to not resurface and not go back again to the kind of air and pressure they were used to all along.

But vulnerability is really submerging all of you, and letting all the masks and layered insulation you’ve had in place slowly loosen and release under water, being carried away because it’s no longer needed.

You don’t experience yourself clearly when all the mirrors you’ve placed around yourself only reflects the small of yourself that you were comfortable being uncomfortable with.

Tenderly living is like the sun’s shine.  How it continuously radiates but can never peak back inside at it’s own core to define it.  It just lives from it.  Breathes from it.  Always in touch with it.

And what feels like fire to your lungs at first later becomes what you know is necessary.  Because it forces you to stay in between each moment instead of trying to conquer each moment, with swords and armor and vigilance that only tires you out at the end and beginning of each day.

Learn to be submerged.  Learn to breathe inconspicuously.  Learn to love and be loved in a different way.

musings of the heart

it’s a strange thing when in order to prove that you are strong, you have to deny what it is that makes you most human. as if the sound of your heart racing will echo into all distances and make you suddenly sniffed out as prey to be capsized.

we slow our hearts down so much for this as if to make it seem like we don’t even own one. as if the racing of our minds and other things are better. as if the flush on our skins will make us too susceptible to being found out. found out for what ? for having emotions and inner lives, which needn’t be a secret anymore in this day and age. we are equipped and have always been equipped with something that will lead us ultimately out of the dark.

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